spring fever

Spring makes me crazy.  All the extra light. Warmth making my body feel different.  Plantlife going wild. 

Spring is too much.  Too many changes. So fluxy.  I asked Ming, are things going to change back?  He said he didn't know.

Long time ago I had really bad anxiety.  I was having multiple panic attacks per day.  I felt I wasn't going to last too long.  Then a rural health nurse put me on Paxil.  Suddenly I could live.  It was dramatic and strange.

Monday I had a panic attack.  Then yesterday I was panicking for hours.  Today I'm feeling better.  Taking it minute by minute.  Say a prayer for me.