Tuesday, September 02, 2014
I was telling Ming that I feel the world is pretty hateful lately. I think it had to do with that woman yelling at us from her car the other day. I'm misanthropic and against dogs too. Especially off-leash dogs.
Monday, September 01, 2014
And I won some damages and they were punitive,
by which I mean the punishment was damaging.
It's about a bike accident.
Today I need to go through all the stuff I bought and traded for yesterday and get ready to mail tomorrow the presents.
Well, it's Labor Day and we don't have plans. I called my learner last night to see if he wanted to get tutored today, but he's at a relative's house and we scheduled for Wednesday. I need a walk. I need rest. I need breakfast.
Good almost-fall wishes to everyone.
Sunday, August 31, 2014
all ziney goodness is mine
I'm tired now.
Saturday, August 30, 2014
I stopped walking and tried to explain we had crossed when it was white, but you know how when someone's mad their thinking skills turn off. She just shook her head.
I told Ming afterward that it was a bloggable moment.
We said the secret word (okra) and got $10 free farmers market bucks. We bought organic strawberries, peaches, green beans, and corn.
Friday, August 29, 2014
This morning I'm eating my cereal with lots of almond slices in it.
I read a friend's dream about a haunted Pepsi machine.
We found something beside our front door, some things a friend promised. But did she knock and we didn't hear? Oh, please knock louder next time.
Thursday, August 28, 2014
This morning we walked to the co-op for walnuts and a lemon. Ming thought it opened at 6, but it opened at 7. We looked at newspapers in the newspaper machines. We sent some mail.
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
frozen strawberries slightly thawed
vanilla greek frozen yogurt
It's very simple and tastes like a smoothie from a very popular smoothie chain.
my favorite squash
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Today I napped because I got really exhausted. And then we made a nice dinner of quinoa with veggies. It was tasty.
Monday, August 25, 2014
There was a lot of waiting involved. Also sadness because the procedure has to be repeated.
We had rush hour traffic, but at least it wasn't too hot.
I texted with a friend. He and I have good text conversations. We talked about my year motto, Never In a Hurry. We talked about defensiveness and taking things personally. Jumping to conclusions. Tomorrow morning we're having coffee.
It's a beautiful evening. A dog is barking. Our houseguest is cardweaving with some hemp cord I happened to have. I was going to freecycle it, so it's great.
fun with houseguest
Then we came home and hung out, thinking we'd make a late lunch but nobody got hungry. We decided to snack instead of lunch.
Then we went to church and saw P and toured the grounds (no more lotuses, only their pods). Then we saw Swami, who talked to us for only five minutes because he was hungry for his lunch. But we had a nice fast chat. He gave us prasad. He told us to take grapes from the vine.
Then we went to Carmichael library. I wrote a letter and read a little.
Then we made dinner and invited over HW. She was a fun addition to our crowd. We talked about political things, ate a delicious meal, went for a walk.
Ming and I turned in early and I slept almost ten hours last night, which was really good.
Sunday, August 24, 2014
The alarm's set for five hours from now. We have morning plans--my favorite breakfast place in Sacramento (or the world, really) then the big farmers market under the freeway.
Saturday, August 23, 2014
To make a long story short, we have a houseguest who is great, and I got a mystery cd in the mail! So exciting! No note, no letter, no tracklist. We're listening to it. Either the person knows me well or big coincidences abound. And I made some tea.
Friday, August 22, 2014
from Death Tractates
I will quote the poem here in its entirety.
got to but the soul
got to choose.
That it was very clever, stepping
from Lightworld to lightworld
as an egret fishes through its smeared reflections –
for it believed in the one life,
that it would last forever.
Plum trees were waiting to be entered,
the swirling way they have,
each a shower of
Each one full of hope,
and of the repetitions –
I called again. I thought she was superior somehow
because she had become invisible,
because she had become subtle
among the shapes –
Today we're seeing friends for lunch, Indian food. We're bringing them some backyard tomatoes. I want to bring backyard sunflowers too. I wish we had some thrift store vases.
I remember when I was in high school bringing frontyard roses to the teachers I loved.
My therapist is the closest thing to a teacher than I have now. I love her so much.
Thursday, August 21, 2014
My computer is fixed and Ming backed up the files, but I don't have faith in the backup system so I don't know if I'll be able to get the files off it when I need them. Yes, it was the power supply. We are $113 lighter.
We went to a book club meeting last night. Consensus was that it was a boring book. I was the boardest, not being able to get more than a fourth of the way through. Ming was the least board, enthusiastically enjoying it.
Ming is like the opposite of Mikey in the old Life cereal commercials. He likes everything.
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
I went to the dentist anyway because it's so hard to get an appointment there.
I'm having applesauce, my post-dentist treat.
Monday, August 18, 2014
conversation overheard at the bulk bins
mom: You know that's a sin.
kid: What's a sin?
nightmares by Laura-Marie aka why I'm up at 4:30
Then I dreamt about flying. I was in a room trying to be quiet so the bad guys in the other room wouldn't get me. And I thought it was a good idea to fly.
Then I was watching this creepy tv show and getting more and more scared. These men--maybe zombies--in this field doing a bad dance with a huge full moon behind them. It was beautiful but very scary.
Then an evil animal emerged from some dead plants and headed straight for me. I woke up crying out.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
how hard it is to be home again
Then we went to the big farmers market under the freeway. It was very crowded. But we got some fruits including the delicious plums that are actually prunes.
Ming's doing laundry. I am struck by how hard it is to be home again.
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Yesterday afternoon we went to Guadalupe Beach. I had no energy. Then we went to the cemetery. Then we went to the library, which was small and hot.
The air mattress is deflating. Soon we'll be on the road.
Friday, August 15, 2014
my therapist's second-favorite joke
Why did the chicken half-way cross the road?
How will it be? Will I get all brief? Will I become more anxious with something more to lose? I thought before how it was nice not having to worry about my phone.
There's an ee cumings quote on the wall in the room we're staying in.
To be nobody-but-yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else -- means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight and never stop fighting. - ee cummings