dangerous compassions

I call you / from the comet's cradle

Tuesday, June 19, 2018


Safe in California at the weird hotel we stay at in Vallejo.  Love to all, homies and non-homies,

Monday, June 18, 2018

jai ma

We housesat and ate the veggie burgers of the people we were housesitting for.  Veggie burgers are good!  I had forgotten.

Last night at the failed pool party I played and sang "Boys Like Me" by Paul Baribeau on uke for A while he was lying on the dog couch half-asleep, and he laughed at the lyrics repeatedly.

We bought some ginger turmeric kombucha at costco today while shopping for the Worker.  Had to buy hamburgers for the Worker and we didn't get enough first try so I had to run back most of the length of the warehouse to pick up another box of 40 frozen while Ming was in line.  I gave him a look.

Today we go to California for just two nights for the Wah! concert.

Sunday, June 17, 2018

June 16 2018 Las Vegas Radical Mental Health Collective

sweet and easy

I finished the book I was reading to myself, Being-In-Dreaming by Florinda Donner.  This is one of the best books I've read in a long time.  I think I'll review it on goodreads.

I was craving shrimp for a while, so today we went to Veggie House for delicious fake shrimp.  Yumyum!

Thinking about trust, commitment, chosen family.  How exhausting it is to half-trust.

Tomorrow we're going on a brief trip.  Housesitting has been great though I haven't swam.  The little doggies are sweet and easy.

Happy father's day to Dad, wherever you are.  I feel the need to cry somewhere for a while but don't know if I have the time.  Maybe it'll slip by.

Saturday, June 16, 2018


Sometimes a source of contention, in a relationship, can be a fount of energy.

This morning I went to Soul Collage.  I had fun.  It was me and J.  Ming went to the movies.

I made a card about the present and a card about the past.

R is having truck trouble so Ming is giving him a ride somewhere.  I'm guessing autozone.

We are housesitting.  We got burritos.  But gas station burritos are depressing.

Friday, June 15, 2018

stand behind my shield

My friend Devan has a beautiful new song out.


Thursday, June 14, 2018


Wednesday, June 13, 2018


We might go see a Wah concert next week in the Bay Area.  It depends.  Waiting to hear for sure from A, but I made the hotel reservations this morning.  But maybe we should go by ourselves, if A can't come.  But it's a long drive.

The swamp cooler is failing.  We have two in our house, and the one by us is the failing one.  Ming says it might need a new pump.

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

three good things

Every day I play duolingo and closemaster in a effort to learn Spanish, and it feels like self-care.

This morning I wrote a poem.  I often write poem-bits but not often a whole poem.

I got this coffee concentrate from Trader Joe's, coconut flavor, and it's amazing.  You mix it with milk.

Monday, June 11, 2018


I got a new shirt.  It's pine green.  I wore it for the first time yesterday.  I like it.

"Sometimes I wish I could go into another world with you," I told A last night.  "A comfier world.  With couches."

We ate chocolate with pistachios in it.  It got melty.

This morning Ming and I did our weekly Catholic Worker costco shop.  I called J to ask how many watermelons to buy, but she didn't answer, so I bought two.  It was the right choice.

Sunday, June 10, 2018


I bought a big bag of peeled garlic from cotstco.  That's how much I hate peeling garlic.  And that's how much I love garlic.  It was just less than $9.  I wanna put it in everything.

Today Ming and R and two journalists are going to Peace Camp to fix some vandalism.  They will bring gloves to move rocks.

Last night I cooked the sweet potatoes by boiling them, and they didn't get satisfactorily soft.  I don't recommend boiling sweet potatoes!

Saturday, June 09, 2018

not sarcastic

I tried to build some bridges and was rejected, which hurt.  People we're estranged from.  I asked for forgiveness and community.  Denied.

The van, we went to autozone to see the code for the check engine light.  It's an oxygen sensor.

Then we went to the store and bought some foods.  Then A made quesadillas.  They had garlic, red bell pepper, and cilantro in them.  We prayed. 

This morning I didn't want to wake up at 5:30 to serve the hungry but did.  Then we had a meeting.  You know me--I love community meetings.

Friday, June 08, 2018


This morning I had an interview and Ming does too with someone else and is speaking for a class at UNLV about activism, charity.

R came over to borrow some tortillas and we ended up talking while he made and ate some soyrizo and egg burritos.  Then I made coffee and we played music together.  I had my uke and he had his guitar.  It was healing.

Thursday, June 07, 2018

camping trip complete

Home safe from camping!  I got good nature time.  Unfortunately the check engine light came on again, in our van, on the way home.  But we made it.  We'll take it into the shop again Monday.

Trees, tree light, tree smells, birdsong, friendship, lichen, togetherness, good food, fun.

Monday, June 04, 2018


Tomorrow we leave on our camping trip.  It's just two nights, but we will be out of touch.  Ming will hike a lot, we predict.

Ming craves pancakes.  My friend couldn't think of the word for pancake mix so thought of pancake dust, which I called poetry.

Sunday, June 03, 2018

onion hands

My hands still smell like onions from last night's dinner.  I made the rice, delicious cumin rice with onions and garlic and peas.  And I heated the beans with onions and garlic.  And A heated the tamales in the oven.  They were great but not as good as the tamales made by my familia.

A was shocked I used up all his cumin.  "I'll buy you some more," I said.  Also I agreed to buy him costco coconut oil.  He's a massage therapist and uses it all day.

We live in a friary and there are crosses on most walls of our house.  Now housesitting there are American flags here and crosses too.  Ming wanted me to tell you.

Saturday, June 02, 2018

blessed and lucky

We liked the druids.

My energy is very low.  On the phone Mom said I sounded depressed.  Maybe since it's getting summery I'm avoiding the sun extra.  I have a vitamin d deficiency.

Maybe I should go swimming.  It's so easy to stay indoors where it's nicely air conditioned, here where we're housesitting.

The water heater was leaking, Ming discovered the morning, looking for the trashcans.  So he watched a youtube video on how to turn off the hot water and turned it off.  Airing out the garage.

My feet are crampy.  Maybe I'm dehydrated.  I don't sound very healthy in this blog post.  I think of myself as blessed with health.

Thursday, May 31, 2018


We're housesitting.  Strangely, my swimsuit is in the van.  So I was going to skinnydip.  Then I realized the neighbor's windows overlook the pool!  Oops.

So we went to Walmart so I could buy a swimsuit but the only one in my size was ugly.  Oh well.  I'll wear a sportsbra and chonies.

Housesitting is good.  The dog is at the kennel, so it's easy.  We're just tending the plants.

Ming is voting.  I'm so tired it's like I never recovered from our last trip.  But I think we're going to visit the druids tonight.

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

$4000 sad

Well, we spent three hours in a small casino this morning, awaiting news of our car.  The mechanic told us our transmission is toast.  I'm sad. 

Oh well.  What's money but to spend.  Unfortunately we don't have any, to spare, but we have credit cards.

So I smell like a casino.  I will nap maybe and take a shower and wash my hair.  After I eat some noodles.

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

palo santo


Yesterday our friend S gave us some runes--runes drawn in black sharpie on lima beans rather than carved in stones or wood.  I think they're cool.  She said kidney beans but they are white and flat.  I think they're lima beans.

So I was reading about runes online.  I read about runes before in books.  I feel slightly intimidated by them.

Yesterday we took our houseguests to Mt Charleston but at some point the car made a bad sound and started having trouble accelerating.  Oh no.  The check engine light came on.

Also we already knew we needed front brakes.  So our car is in the shop.

I bought a big bag of peeled garlic.  I want to increase my garlic consumption.  Ming bought super expensive cherries.  Not summer yet.

Monday, May 28, 2018

pinball museum last night

backyard tree collards