dangerous compassions

this may be the night / our bodies fill with light

Sunday, September 14, 2014

morning affirmation

This morning we walked to the co-op.  We saw on a light post: You are a being of limitless, boundless worth.  It was nice.

I really liked this jean jacket for years but didn't wear it much, and it doesn't fit well anymore, so I'm freecycling it.  I don't need it.  So someone's picking it up at 10:45.  I thought it was too good for Goodwill, that it would get lost among everything.

I started doing morning pages and meditating again this morning.  And I drew.  I enjoyed the drawing.  I like feeling like I'm accomplishing something early. It's better than checking my email immediately. 

The other day after apple picking Ming and I read the Robert Frost poem together "After Apple Picking" and enjoyed it.  I told him how for me it was about teaching  Here's an excerpt.  

For I have had too much
Of apple-picking: I am overtired
Of the great harvest I myself desired.
There were ten thousand thousand fruit to touch,
Cherish in hand, lift down, and not let fall. 
He looked up some online cheating website for analysis of the poem, and they just talked about apples and death.  So he doubted me, that it can be about a former job.  I played the master's degree card.

Saturday, September 13, 2014


Our corn from this morning's farmers market was smutty.  I tasted the smut.  It was okay.  Then I cut off the smutty parts and ate the rest.  It was good.

I read the wikipedia article about it.  I thought it got people high.  Some places it's a delicacy.


Whistling in the Dark -- TMBG

There's only one thing that I know how to do well
I've often been told that you only can do what you know
how to do well
and that's be you
be what you're like
be like yourself.
--They Might Be Giants

This is the song that's in my head from my teenhood.

Friday, September 12, 2014

and then

apples realized

We went to the co-op for oatmeal for the all the apple crisp I'll be baking.  Ho ho.

apple time

This morning we went to Apple Hill.  We visited many little ranches. 

We went to Denver Dan's and looked around.  "Do you have donuts?" I asked.  We were directed to Rainbow.

We went to Rainbow and had apple cider donuts, hot and fresh. 

We visited Honey Bear that did not have organic apples yet.  "Next week," the worker said. 

We visited Fudge Factory and had samples.  We bought a square of peanut butter fudge.  It was delicious.

Finally, we went to Pine O' Mine.  There we picked almost nine pounds of red delicious.  What are we going to do with all of these apples?

my typewriter fortune, Ming's typewriter fortune

Is it true I need to be less demonstrative in the expression of my love?

Thursday, September 11, 2014

mouse woes

My mouse died, my computer mouse.  It started working badly then died altogether.  The little red light stopped glowing.

But I have another mouse, a cordless mouse.  It's hot pink.  But there's only one problem.  The right mouse button doesn't work.  Why is that?

So I'm trying to work around not having a right mouse button.  I looked up the cut and paste keyboard commands.  I'm still not sure how to open a link in a new tab.

Also in the news, Ming went to Gather and brought home some $5 vegetarian lumpia that was so good.


Ming has been doing kicks lately.  I got this yoga book from my friend K, and there was this little pullout from Self Magazine stuck between two pages, and it shows exercises for strengthening abdominal muscles.  I guess kicks are good for that.

I went to group yesterday and today.  It's good to have some structure and social times.  Today we learned about the difference between feelings and emotions, which I didn't get and am not sure matters.  And we drew about feelings on the outline of a person.  We used markers.  I'll include mine below.  (There are little hearts on my hands, but the pink didn't scan.)

Wednesday, September 10, 2014


1.  mini-walk
2.  tutoring: phonics, flashcards
3.  group
4.  Anna's Vegan Cafe
5.  library
6.  home
7.  new zines (Vedanta zine and fish letters #3)
8.  leftover banana pecan pancakes
9.  blog
10.  bed

Sacramento Is For Lovers

Tuesday, September 09, 2014

skunk alert

This morning Ming and I walked near the confluence of the American and Sacramento rivers.  We saw some feral cats.  We went onto this island over Jimboom Bridge.  We sat for a while at a picnic table looking out onto the river. 

Then a skunk came walking toward us.  I think you're not supposed to see skunks in the daytime, so we got up and left.  Then I looked back over my shoulder and saw a black & white cat near where the skunk had been.  But I know it had been a skunk because the black and white were brighter and because of the way they walk.

I am feeling like crap for a variety of reasons and want to hole up and suffer alone.  Weird, huh.  But that's the way it can be, for me at least.  I am underscheduled and lonely.

Monday, September 08, 2014

Musee Mechanique realized

Gmorning.  Yesterday was fantastic.  We enjoyed the Musee Mechanique.  I got a typewriter fortune, so wonderful, for only fifty cents.  I played Bust-a-Move II for maybe half an hour, being challenged by Ming and his second son and beating them both.  Was fun.  But I kind of wanted to play Whack A Mole but didn't.  I listened to a piano play me a song.  I wanted to hear another song but put my quarter in the wrong slot.  So there are reasons to go back.

Then Japantown was more exhausting then fun, maybe, and it's always so warm in that mall.  But I looked at some Japanese notebooks (don't need any but like to look) and bought two stationery things at the discount store.  Some red envelopes with pics of Japanese toys on them and some clover stationery.

This morning I was up early from a nightmare about being trapped on an island and realizing we were all going to die.

Sunday, September 07, 2014


Today we're going to Berkeley then San Francisco with Ming's kids.  We're going to the Musee Mechanique.  It's a museum of antique machines that you put in a quarter and something happens.  Well, not all the machines are antique.  But it's great fun.  There is a Laffing Sal.

Ming ate some corn on the cob for breakfast and now a raisin bran muffin.  We like our corn on the cob raw.

Saturday, September 06, 2014


For some reason when my literacy learner is confronted with the word "fix" he says "flix" then "flex."  After a while he says "fix."  I don't know where the "l" comes from. 

Also last time he would see "sells" and say "shells."  He put an "h" in other words too. 

Today I got in the mail a poem my friend in Emeryville sent me.  It's good and reminds me of this other poem--Amy Gerstler's "Prayer for Jackson."

I like the way my friend's note says "Peace" then a little heart.  I think it's good to have a different symbol from the word.  But the two ideas really do go together.


The local farmers market changed their rules so the free five market bux when you say the secret word only is one per family instead of one per person now.  But Ming got strawberries, green beans, and corn with the bux.

Now he and the downstairs neighbor are working on the passenger side seatbelt which is f-ed.  Hopefully they can fix it.

Friday, September 05, 2014

loving you

Gmorning.  We have been walking longer walks in the mornings.  It feels good.  This morning we walked to the Fort Sutter post office and the co-op.  It's anti-depression Friday, when everything's 10% off for everyone.  And if you already get a discount, it's an extra 10% off.  So that's good.

This morning I see a friend.  I have a ripe avocado that needs to be eaten today.  Well, I guess I could always put it in the fridger.

Love to all of you readers out there. 

Thursday, September 04, 2014

art I drew last night

art Ming drew last night


Last night's visit with a friend was great fun.  We drew pictures after dinner.  I forgot the chocolate covered walnuts.

This morning we walked at McKinley Park, and afterward I enjoyed sitting by the duck pond for a while while light shimmered on me.

Then we bought avocados and bananas at Safeway.

Then I cooked up one of the volunteer butternut squash from the backyard.  It's small.  I ate half of it for breakfast.

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

soyrizo rice etc

This morning we walked to Safeway again.  It's a nice walk early in the morning.  Then I tutored, and it was hard work.

Then we went to our favorite vegan restaurant, Anna's.  Lunch was delicious.

I just got off the phone with my dad.  Health news, family stuff.  With Ming's mom it's the same: health news and family stuff.

Soon I'll be 38.  Dad said it made him feel old.  "Wait till I'm 40," I said.

Tonight we're making soyrizo rice for dinner and bringing it over to a friend's house with some salad stuff. 

Oh, and maybe we'll bring chocolate covered walnuts too.

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

new pics all taken by Ming

My backpack at the park.

Ming's kids last week at Ben & Jerry's.

Sunday "cronut" which is a dessert that's a cross between a donut and a croissant.  I didn't like it too much.


This morning we walked to Safeway, which is more than a mile away.  We bought some nice foods. 

I was telling Ming that I feel the world is pretty hateful lately.  I think it had to do with that woman yelling at us from her car the other day.  I'm misanthropic and against dogs too.  Especially off-leash dogs.

Monday, September 01, 2014


I love this song "South Carolina" by John Linnell.  These are my favorite two lines.

And I won some damages and they were punitive,
by which I mean the punishment was damaging. 

It's about a bike accident.


First day of September and it's supposed to hit 101 here today.  Screw that!

official welcome

Gmorning, friends.  I would like to officially welcome you to September.  I think it'll be a good one.  I was just saying elsewhere how I used to love this month, as a child.  New pencils, new dresses, and second third fourth fifth sixth chances.  The nip in the air.  Cold mornings.  Not really cold but enough to excite me.

Today I need to go through all the stuff I bought and traded for yesterday and get ready to mail tomorrow the presents.

Well, it's Labor Day and we don't have plans.  I called my learner last night to see if he wanted to get tutored today, but he's at a relative's house and we scheduled for Wednesday.  I need a walk.  I need rest.  I need breakfast.

Good almost-fall wishes to everyone.

Sunday, August 31, 2014

all ziney goodness is mine

Today was San Francisco Zine Fest.  It was great though I vowed not to buy anything.  I bought mostly things for other people.

I'm tired now.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

bloggable moment

This morning we walked to the farmers market and got yelled at by a driver as we walked home.  She was yelling at us for crossing the street.  She had never been a pedestrian, I guess, because she didn't know that you cross when there's a white man and then continue through the blinkey red hand.  She was trying to make a left turn as we crossed and had to wait about seven seconds.  So she yelled at us.

I stopped walking and tried to explain we had crossed when it was white, but you know how when someone's mad their thinking skills turn off.  She just shook her head.

I told Ming afterward that it was a bloggable moment.

We said the secret word (okra) and got $10 free farmers market bucks.  We bought organic strawberries, peaches, green beans, and corn.

Friday, August 29, 2014


We stopped by our loved Iraqi bakery for some delicious fresh bread.  Then we came home and ate the leftover labneh with the bread.  I made some hummus and it was good.  I sliced up some tomatoes from the garden.  Good lunch.


Last night we went to a letter writing event put on by Sac Prisoner Support.  It was fun to extend friendship in a limited way.

This morning I'm eating my cereal with lots of almond slices in it.

I read a friend's dream about a haunted Pepsi machine. 

We found something beside our front door, some things a friend promised.  But did she knock and we didn't hear?   Oh, please knock louder next time.

Thursday, August 28, 2014


Yesterday I took two naps.  Then we went to bed at 7.  Something's wrong with me, but I'm not sure what.  Hand foot & mouth relapse?  PMS?  Recovery from social times?  Ming says maybe I'm getting narcolepsy.

This morning we walked to the co-op for walnuts and a lemon.  Ming thought it opened at 6, but it opened at 7.  We looked at newspapers in the newspaper machines.  We sent some mail.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

smoothie news

Lately we've been making smoothies using the blender a friend gave us. 

frozen strawberries slightly thawed
vanilla greek frozen yogurt
orange juice

It's very simple and tastes like a smoothie from a very popular smoothie chain.

my favorite squash

This morning we went to Trader Joe's, and I said, "Oh my god!  Look at the delicata squash!" because they had a ton.  They are huge!  We bought two.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014


Ming and our houseguest have gone to the Sac Peace Action office to watch a movie about sacred sites being harmed.  Then Ming's dropping off our houseguest at the Amtrak station.  The guest will go north.

Today I napped because I got really exhausted.  And then we made a nice dinner of quinoa with veggies.  It was tasty.