Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Christmas in Lompoc last night was packed. I got to see my cousin S who was in prison for five years and got out late last month. We spoke a little bit, and it was awesome to see him in person after so many letters.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Today I'm going to see my friend P at the skilled nursing facility. I hope to be more comfortable this time. I don't want to burden her with my discomfort.
I've got the Christmas presents all wrapped, the very few I'm giving--parents, aunt whose name I picked in the draw, best friend. We never got a card out to Erik's dad, unfortunately. Quite a few people never got cards.
Yesterday I got a card from someone I hadn't heard from since around May. I thought I'd lost her. I've been writing to her periodically this whole time, and I finally had just given up.
Monday, December 20, 2010
chimps playing with stick dolls
Sunday, December 19, 2010
lack of snow geese
Then we went to the library and a thrift store where Erik found some things. I almost bought a sheet, but it was kind of ugly plaid, a plaid with a lot of white in it. I will check back for a prettier one.
I need to do some Christmas shopping for my dad--he finally gave me an ideas list. But I figure tomorrow--Monday--will be less crazy than today. Last night I made myself a long to do list.
It's pouring rain here. I want to walk, though, and the hourly forecast says it will let up around 10.
SAT scoring ended yesterday, and I have a song in my heart.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
A few days ago I did the same thing only instead of rain falling from the sky, large yellow leaves were falling from the trees above me onto the car. That was beautiful too.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Today I went to the hospital to visit my friend P. It was my first time being at a hospital since my younger niece was born. I found it overwhelming, all that equipment in the halls and strange smells, but seeing P was worth it. I didn't touch anything except my friend when I hugged her. I kept my hands in my jacket pockets. I'm paranoid about hospital germs.
This afternoon they transferred P to skilled nursing. I don't know how long until she can go home.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Today at my favorite park I sat on a park bench in full sun. I felt the sun shine on me, and it felt good. I was sitting under huge trees that have lost almost all of their leaves.
Nothing I am feeling or doing is blogworthy, or nothing I'm feeling or doing is bloggable.
At Trader Joe's I like this punk rock checker who's pregnant. Today she asked if I found everything okay, and I wanted to complain that the Trader Joe's enchilada sauce isn't vegetarian, but I didn't feel strong enough.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Today M came to see me. We had a great time at our favorite cafe and Thai food. She has a cold, and I hope I don't catch it. She wore a black scarf and a green sweater with elbow patches. I praised the elbow patches, and she said they were the reason she bought the sweater.
Tonight I was on the phone for about an hour and a half with my friend A. Her parents have a free plane ticket because of a credit card, and I might fly out there next month.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
neighbor art #2
excerpt from a letter about the fest
social for so long took everything out of me.
The guy tabling next to me was great. He wore a top hat and
drew things. He wasn't selling anything--he was just promoting his
web comics and his lit zine. He was enthusiastic and nice, but I
heard his spiels to fest visitors over and over. He drew me a picture
to give to a friend, and I hugged him.
I made $4. I sold a medium mini-journal and a small mini-journal.
Then someone wanted functionally ill 7 but didn't want to draw
something, so she offered a dollar and I accepted.
I got some zines and bought a beautiful book of fifty 50-word stories. I
met a guy named J who I liked. I bonded with the people I
went there with.
It was hard carrying things around--I brought a camping chair for
M to sit, but there wasn't room at the table.
I was writing a letter to my friend J the whole time, so it was nice
to have her to talk to.
Very few people took even the free zines. I don't know what it is.
Many fest visitors, their eyes just passed over my zines like they
didn't exist. I don't know why. I tried not to take it personally.
Maybe they were only there for books? But I would think readers would
like zines too. I'm glad I had a description of functionally ill on
the table, just a sentence. If I hadn't, even less people would have
All in all, I don't think I'll ever do it again, but there were nice
things about it.
I didn't get many drawings. H drew two things, and M drew
two things. My friend K who lives in Berkeley paid a visit, and
she drew Underwater Piano. The drawings are good and funny. Maybe
I'll scan them.
I want to blog about yesterday's fest, but not now. I think I'm finally recovering.
Friday, December 10, 2010
I'm tired. Cats are gross. That is all.
Thursday, December 09, 2010
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
me: This tastes really weird.
Erik: It's cheap candy. Throw it away.
me: You know what it tastes like? You're going to think I'm crazy.
Erik: It's crap!
me: It tastes like strawberry-cinnamon.
Erik: Throw it away!
But on the way to Berkeley, we stopped in Fairfield and saw M and her boyfriend for lunch. She and her bf have been together for 11 years, but I'd never met him. She had told me he's a ham, and she described him well. He seems very nice.
So that was stressful--we had Chinese food. I was quiet.
Then we went to Tilden Park, and it was cold and damp. Erik went out on trails while I sat at a picnic table and worked on a letter and Christmas cards. We weren't in the best mood. We were sad, feeling weighted down by responsibilities and work. December SAT starts Thursday. Then work work work until Christmas. Then Erik has to start calling in for jury duty right after Christmas.
I got a craving for raspberry cordials, a kind of candy I had when I was a teenager--it's chocolate spheres with sweet raspberry liquid inside. They're so good! I don't know where I would find them in person, but online, shipping's about $8. A place like Cost Plus World Market might have them--not sure.
Today Erik's working outside the home--he has a four day job. I've done some housework and sent some mail. It feels good to accomplish things.
Sunday, December 05, 2010
ideas list for what to draw
Saturday, December 04, 2010
Erik's REI finds
He got a Kelty pack for $20. It's a small backpacking size which could be used for an overnight trip. Or it could be used as a huge daypack.
He got a groundcloth for $10.
And the best find of all was a pair of boots for $10. The boots were originally $160. Omg. The brand is Vasque.
I thought Kelty was the name of those seals that turn into people, or people who turn into seals. But I googled it and came up empty handed. Selkie! I just googled "seals that turn into people" and got selkie.
Right now Erik's at an REI sale with his friend P. He's looking for backpacking stuff and might spend up to $200.
Last night Kitty was demonic. Our sleep was interrupted over and over again by his howls. Erik's the primary nighttime caretaker, so I slept more than he did. Still I'm tired, and I don't know if I'll go to choir practice even if he's home with the car in time.
bug bite update
Friday, December 03, 2010
Today Erik got a new computer mouse at Target. He's trying it out.
Something bit me on my left arm, my upper arm, on the inside. I don't know what bit me, but it's super itchy and swelled. There's an inner red circle about the size of a nickel and then an outer pink circle about the size of the diameter of a golf ball. I was indoors, and I hope it wasn't a spider, but I was awake.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
Today Erik heard from his favorite friend, the jury commissioner. He's on standby starting Dec 27th. WTF?
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
Christmas cards, REI
Saturday's a big event at REI called yard sale or something and lots of outdoor equipment will be there for cheap. It's from 10 to 1, so I guess I'll be missing choir practice.