dangerous compassions

I call you / from the comet's cradle

Sunday, November 29, 2009

rice nog

We got a carton of Rice Nog at the co-op. It wasn't all I wished it to be, but it was okay. The carton says it's thick, but it wasn't thick. Flavor's okay.

more food

Erik's having one of his headaches that last multiple days, but he's doing yoga this morning before it gets bad and hopes to stave it off. I have a ton of transcribing to do, but I'm taking a break. I've been in close contact with my boss P, and we're working hard to get this done and ready for the book binder. Then I'll have some days off before the December SAT scoring session starts on the 10th. I want to do Christmas cards and make a CD for my loved friend A who's still in the hospital.

My mom bought us a ton of food at Costco on Sunday. I love the organic quinoa, asparagus, bread, avocados, blueberries, bananas, cashews, soymilk, refried beans, canned diced tomatoes, fresh garlic. Erik enjoys the cantaloupes. Sunday we also bought fresh strawberries from a strawberry stand, and I still have some of those. They're best the first day but good other days too.

Friday, November 27, 2009


Yesterday we ate broccoli, cauliflower, Brusseles sprouts, Yorshire pudding, stuffing, bread, mashed potatoes, roast potatoes, and corn bread. Baby carrots, olives, sparkling cider. It was a lot of cooking. My parents had turkey, gravy, and ham too. Oh, and there was pumpkin pie after. The pumpkin pie was from the store. We made a chery pie ourselves, but I didn't have any. I actually don't like cherry pie too much, but the pastry looked very pretty. I sculpted two cherries with stems and a leaf for the top. And my mom made a latice.

Before that, in the morning, my parents had their traditional sausage rolls, which are pork sausages rolled up in pastry and baked. For the first time, my mom and I experimented with making veggie rolls for me and Erik. We put asparagus in some and mushrooms in some. Both were very good, but we liked the mushroom ones better.

This morning we had fry-ups for breakfast. As usual, the TV has been on a lot--I've seen a lot of news, some Mythbusters, some National Geographic shows, and bits of Matrix movies.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


This morning we're leaving on a Thanksgiving trip. I still need to pack, and we're dropping off the foot pedal at P's place on our way out.

Monday, November 23, 2009


Today I visited Icarus forums, washed dishes, screwed around online, wrote two letters, did some transcribing. Erik was working outside the home and in the evening washed laundry, the whites and the pinks.

Finally got a full night's sleep last night but don't feel any better. I'll try it again tonight.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

I Don't Want Solidarity If It Means Holding Hands With You

You can get a lot of free music by Defiance, Ohio from their website!


the recital

Yesterday was the recital at L's house that happens every year. P played a song by Hayden, and I turned pages. The choir sang two songs. It was fun. There was some excellent guitar music. There were less people this year, I think, which is fine by me. Swami went.

This morning we were up at 3:20. We finished up a SAT scoring session (the scoring window opens at 4 our time). I can't believe we're done! I'm free!

Friday, November 20, 2009

plan it x records

I love Ghost Mice and this is the record label run by half of Ghost Mice. Their CDs are $5!


maple leaf cookies

I like these maple leaf cookies from Trader Joe's but I kind of pig out on them. I like to dunk them in my tea.


awful library books

Last night I was reading this website and loving it.


Wednesday, November 18, 2009


The sky has been so blue, when we go for a walk. Today was windy. I haven't been sleeping. Hopefully tonight will be better.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


A good friend went into the hospital on Friday night, and I've been super preoccupied thinking about her health. I called her last night, and it was our first time talking on the phone (she's an online friend).

And life has been SAT scoring. Nothing to see here! Move along.

Oh, I will say the vegan donuts at Whole Foods continue to charm me. And if you haven't has an Arkansas Black apple, you should really try one. They taste kind of like wine, in a good way.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

free the hikers

Some young people are being detained, and I wrote some letters and postcards to try to help them.



The analogies are really hard!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

SAT day three

Really loud at the apartment complex today. Makes it hard to score SAT. I have no energy.

Lately I've been interested in improving my vocabulary and wanting to do analogies--couldn't find any good online sources for analogies, so I got a book for preparing for the Miller's Analogies Test at the library.

Last night my friend A in New York went into the hospital after having some really bad days. I'm happy she's there and hope she can stay safe and get well. I wrote her a letter and am now writing a letter to her mom.

Friday, November 13, 2009


I wanted to remember this link to Enough: The Personal Politics of Resisting Capitalism.


Thursday, November 12, 2009

Uninhabitable Mansions

One of my favorite musicians Alec Ounsworth of Clap Your Hands Say Yeah started a new project with Uninhabitable Mansions. I need to give the music a few more listens. So far I don't like it as much as his other stuff.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

free rice

I've been playing Free Rice like crazy! There are many games there. I thought it was just English vocabulary. But I like the French vocabulary. And Erik and I like to play the geography together. It's fun!

Monday, November 09, 2009

for the kids III

Got an album out from the library called For the Kids III. The first song on it is an Of Montreal song that doesn't sound like it's for kids at all. The third track is called "The Poopsmith Song" by Over the Rhine and is all about where not to put your poop in the verses, and the chorus goes, "Poop in the potty. Poop goes in the potty." It's bewildering.

my recipe for vegan baingan bartha

Today I made vegan baingan bartha again and remembered the poblano. I think it's Indian-Pakistani style because it's like what we get at an Indian-Pakistani place in Berkeley. The recipes for baingin bartha I see online have no soy creamer in them.

My recipe is like this. All measurements and timings are approximate.

earth balance margarine
2 large eggplants, diced
2 onions, diced
1 poblano, seeded and chopped
4 cloves of garlic, pressed
1 1/2 tsp cumin, whole
1 1/2 tsp turmeric
2/3 cup diced canned tomatoes
veggie broth or water
ground chipotle
smoked paprika
2/3 cup plain soy creamer

Put a generous amount of earth balance in a large pot. Add the eggplants and saute. Meanwhile, melt some earth balance in a smaller pot. Add the cumin and saute until the cumin is toasted. Add the onions and poblano. Saute for about 10 minutes. Add the garlic and turmeric and saute another five minutes. Meanwhile, the eggplant should be getting cooked. Allow it to brown, if possible. Add broth or water if needed. Add tomatoes to eggplants. Cook for about five minutes. Add onion mixture to eggplant mixture. Cook for about five minutes. Season with salt, pepper, smoked paprika (optional), and ground chipotle (optional) to taste. Blend with a hand blender until smooth. Add soy creamer. Stir and serve with naan and/or basmati rice. (We actually eat it with warmed whole wheat pita bread because pita bread costs half as much as naan.)

Sunday, November 08, 2009

eating toothpaste

Yesterday I helped my friend H prepare to move. I shredded documents for her, and I got to know the shedding machine very well, its quirks, when it needed time to cool down. I loved it. It was great to be around people but not have to talk much. I'm planning to go back this afternoon.

I have been doing a lot of little things, like writing letters and messing around on the computer and making food. I'm perfecting my baingan bartha recipe. Yesterday when I made it, I forgot to put in the poblano. Still it was profoundly delicious and one of the richest things I've ever made. I need to buy some naan or pita bread to eat with it because tortillas are not ideal.

The other day I went on a spree of downloading free music from Amazon. The best thing probably was a song called "Eating Toothpaste" by Bratmobile. I learned about Bratmobile from watching Don't Need You, the riot grrl movie. The CD is called Be On the Lookout! and I'll try pasting the link below.


Friday, November 06, 2009

me yesterday, photo by Erik

graffiti yesterday, photo by Erik

Stinson Beach yesterday, photo by Erik

Sufjan Stevens

It's so rare that I get music for myself, but I ordered Sufjan Stevens' Christmas album boxed set to help get me through the winter (the way John Denver's Muppets Christmas album has in the past). It comes with 5 EPs, a songbook, stickers, short stories, an essay, and I think a video too. Anyway, here's a fan video of "Come On! Let's Boogie to the Elf Dance!" I think I might have posted it before last year....

day trippers, yeah

Yesterday we had our morning, packed a lunch, and went west. First we went to Muir Beach where we bundled up, watched waves, and wrote. I wrote a letter to my friend S in Santa Maria. Then we went for a little hike at Steep Ravine, one of our favorite trails in the world. I got father than I'd ever got. We were dazzled by all the green, smelled California Bay Laurel trees, saw a leaf suspended by a spider web that seemed to float in the air as if by magic. Then it was raining and I felt scared because the stone steps get slippery when they're wet. But we were fine. Then we went to Stinson Beach where we got bundled up again and watched the sunset. A surfer smiled at us.

Then we went to Berkeley. We had dinner at our favorite Indian-Pakistani place, and the food was perfect. In the past, the rice has been not go great, but last night it was wonderful. Then we went to Erik's loved tea shop and sat on the floor on tatami mats upstairs. Erik had Dragon Well. I had ginger-lemon-rosehips. I wrote a letter to my friend M in Brooklyn that I wasn't able to finish because the place closed at 9. But it was time to go home anyway. I slept in the car while Erik drove.

It was just the day I needed, full of stimulation and life.

Thursday, November 05, 2009


Can't find a book I posted for paperback swap that somebody wants.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

chocolate experiments

Today I tried a new kind of chocolate, Green & Black's dark chocolate with dried cherries in it. I don't care for it. The cherries remind me of raisins in this context, which I don't like. The cherries feel like a distraction from the chocolate rather than a happy partner.

Also in the news, I recently had some dark chocolate with freeze dried orange peels in it, which sounds overly strong, but it's quite delicious. The peels give a nice crunch, and it's not overpowering. This bar's made by a company called Chocolove oxox. My friend A bought it for us when she visited the day before Halloween.

starting to get Christmasy

Here's one of my favorite Sufjan Steven songs to sing along with and dance around and watch the cartoon.

Monday, November 02, 2009

curry pumpkin soup

I promised Erik curry pumpkin soup, and it looks like I just accidentally found my recipe on a vegan livejournal community! Yay!

Curry Pumpkin Soup

1/4 c olive oil or butter
1 c chopped onion
1 garlic clove crushed
1 tsp curry powder
1 tsp salt
1/4 tsp ground coriander
1/8 tsp crushed red pepper
3 c vegetable broth
1 3/4 c or 15.5 oz ounce of canned pumpkin
1 c soy creamer
sour cream and chives

In a large sauce pan heat olive oil. Sauté onion and garlic until soft. Add curry, salt, coriander, and red pepper. Cook for 1 minute. Add broth and boil gently uncovered for 15-20 minutes. Stir in pumpkin and half-and-half. Cook 5 minutes. Blend until creamy. Serve warm and garnish with sour cream and chives.


This is Kitty, photo by Erik.


This is a picture of the lunch I made for Erik. It's red quinoa with tomatoes, garlic, and green onions. And shoyu.

dancing babies are next

Gmail changed something. The ad that's on the top of the page is now in yellow. Before, I never noticed it. Now it really stands out. I have officially fallen out of love.

I'm made of knives

Tonight we tried dried mulberries for the first time. They were on sale. I don't like them too much. They taste kind of like raisins.

Tonight I made sweet potato black bean chili again. It turned out great though we don't have limes so I used lemon juice instead of lime juice. I put in a poblano for the heck of it. They looked pretty at the store.

Wrote a letter to C in Bishop at the park today. I've been feeling super isolated and starved for human contact.

I watched some Noam Chomsky videos yesterday. They were depressing and exciting at the same time.

I'm in the middle of transcribing a new interview. Guy today was talking about his experiences in WWII and as a basketball player at UCLA in the '40s. Among other things.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

we are failing daily

This morning we went to Davis. Well, first we went to the farmers market under the freeway and got apples and onions. Then we went to Davis. At the bird refuge we weren't so comfortable. There were hunters. I don't think we'll return. On the other hand, I wrote a letter to my cousin, green ink on pink paper, one of my favorite combinations. Then we went to Davis. I could wander around the co-op for hours, but I only wandered around for about 45 minutes before Erik was very ready to go. So then we went looking for a stationery shop called Carousel, but it's closed down. We went to Avid Reader, and I bought some cards including four Sacramento postcards of Tower Bridge lit up at night. At the co-op I bought some Indian sweets made out of cashews, sugar, cardamom, saffron, and pistachios. They're vegan and delicious.