Friday, February 27, 2009
2. The puja food included jalebi, which is a strange dessert that's kind of rubbery and very orange. I like it. There was also some carrot halwa that had too many raisins in it.
3. Went to mental health place to fill out Medi-Cal paperwork.
4. Walked at Effie Yeaw this morning--saw lots of deer and wild turkeys. I sat by the river and worked on a letter and got a little sunburn. (Doesn't Effie Yeaw sound like some kind of a replacement for a curse word?)
5. Had "I Palindrome I" by They Might Be Giants stuck in my head for a day. "See the hands of my offspring making windmills" is one of the many reasons I love them.
6. Kitty's favorite thing to do lately is looking out the window. That and pooing on the floor.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
The box was hard to open. Everything was well-packed and undamaged.
The first thing I tried was the Old Fashioned Carob Glazed doughnut by Nutrilicious. It was so good. I tried to save half, but I didn't succeed.
Then I tried a marshmallow by Sweet & Sara. It was squishy and marshmallowy and very sweet. I tried another. Definitely squishy and marshmallowy and very sweet. I hadn't had a marshmallow since I was...16 years old? Or maybe did I make some exception after that? I can't remember. But it had been a long time.
Then I tried the vanilla lip balm made by The Merry Hempsters. I read a review saying it would not be very vanilla-y, and the review was right, but I like it.
Everything has been put in the fridge for safekeeping. It's mostly candy, another doughnut, and a vegan mac & cheese mix.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
vegan coconut carrot rice pudding
Sunday, February 22, 2009
walnuts, Ghost World, garlic press, speakers
Last night I read Ghost World, and today I gave it four out of five on Good Reads. I liked it very much though at first the characters seemed so abrasive. Other reviewers said how realistic it was and "When I was 18, I was Enid," but I have never spoken that way with my friends. I guess I'm a...lightweight? Prude?
I'm in the middle of making some baba ganoush. The eggplant is cooling. I broke the excellent garlic press making chili the other day, so all we have now is the substandard garlic press.
Wrote a letter to my friend G in Japan. Went to the Carmichael library and got a Ibrahim Ferrer CD we're listening to right now. Got a pair of freecycle computer speakers that have good sound but very quiet. I wonder why so quiet? They're not small.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
pumpkin scones, phone rings, CD, vitamins, bad dream: a letter
Last night I made pumpkin scones from a recipe Erik found in Student's Go Vegan Cookbook. We were not too impressed. They tasted kind of boring, kind of good. But the texture was too cakey. I expect my scones to be a little more like a biscuit, a little crumbly--Erik suggested flakey. These were like cookies, almost--cakey cookies. But not in a good way. Anyway, we followed the recipe very closely except we left out the raisins / craisins, and I made them smaller than the recipe suggested.
Lately the phone's been ringing off the hook. I don't answer it, and whoever's calling doesn't leave a message. (I'm the kind of person who lets the phone ring until the answering machine answers it and then listens to hear whether it's someone I like, and if it's someone I like, I pick up.) I assume it's telemarketers.
Today Erik is hiking with his best friend T. They're going to Cataract Creek. I've got a pot of beans on the stove and plan to make some pumpkin carob chip cookies with the leftover canned pumpkin from last night's scones. I've washed the dishes and talked with my sick friend P on the phone. I'm listening to a CD I made for my friend H--I haven't seen her since making it the other night, so I'm listening to it, and I'm thinking maybe I'll make a copy for myself because I really like it. It's a more peppy mix than I would usually make because H is an energetic, peppy person.
1. Genius of Love -- Tom Tom Club
2. Close to Me -- The Cure
3. Come On! Feel the Illinoise! -- Sufjan Stevens
4. The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades -- Sufjan Stevens
5. Concerning the UFO Sighting -- Sufjan Stevens
6. I Am Stretched on Your Grave -- Sinead O'Connor
7. Hit -- The Sugarcubes
8. I Left the Grounds -- Innocence Mission
9. Nashville Parthenon -- Casiotone for the Painfully Alone
10. Scattered Pearls -- Casiotone for the Painfully Alone
11. This Must Be the Place -- Talking Heads
12. Please Don't Tell Me to Do the Math(s) -- Los Campesinos!
13. My Year in Lists -- Los Campesinos!
14. This Year -- Mountain Goats
15. Raid on Entebbe -- Mountain Goats
16. Why Can't I Touch It -- The Buzzcocks
17. Rip It Up -- Orange Juice
18. The Bridge I Burned -- Elvis Costello
19. Lost City -- Ghost Mice
20. Pictures of Pandas Painting -- They Might Be Giants
21. Clap Your Hands -- They Might Be Giants
I guess I ruined the surprise, if she reads this, and sometimes she does. But she won't know which H I'm talking about. Unless she realizes how peppy she is.
Later other friend P is coming to pick up the manuscript I finished editing last night, and I don't think he's dropping off a new one--I think we're All Done. But he'll have more work for me proofreading transcriptions in a month.
Yesterday we bought some vegetarian multivitamins at the co-op. Erik got a terrible headache and feels worried it was the vitamin he took, so he didn't take one today. He said he'd try again, though, on a non-hiking day.
Today I've received many emails. This happens sometimes, as if you, world, decide I've been too isolated and decide to send me lots of attention.
Tomorrow I have annual paperwork at my mental health place. I'm stressed about it. Then Saturday I have a doctor's appointment, seeing my shrink, and I'm nervous about that too. Then Tuesday I have my eligibility appointment, and I'm really, really nervous about that. So I'm a creature of anxiety, but no one would understand why unless they knew the effect bureaucracy has on me, and how I feel when I'm not being treated like a person.
Last night I dreamt I accidentally sent an email to everybody in my yahoo address book and it was very bad. That makes me want to go through my yahoo address book and delete some people.
So, that's my news. I hope all of you are doing well and enjoying your Thursday.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
my day in words
Then we went to IKEA. Something special happened: we went in for one thing and came out with one thing. The one thing was a wooden dish drainer. Actually, I looked at dishtowels (a weakness of mine) but none were my type. And I would have loved to find an inexpensive umbrella. But they didn't seem to have any.
Then we went to the library where I got two Tori Amos CDs and an Iron & Wine. And a Cat Stevens.
Then we went to Trader Joe's and got lots of produce though Trader Joe's is not known for its produce.
Tonight I made Erik a bell pepper sandwich for dinner. Then we had spinach salad with fake bacon bits. Then we shared a large square cookie. Tonight P is coming over to pick up a manuscript and deliver a new one. Erik is going to T's place to play video games.
I'm stressed out about the truck. Aamco has a special going on where they'll find out why your check engine light is on for free. So we're planning to bring it there tomorrow morning. They open at 8, the nice woman told me, and don't do appointments. I really wish they did appointments.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Howl's Moving Castle
Erik's been reading me The Scarlet Letter, but I don't like it. We finally skipped through the intro because I found it boring as heck. But I still don't like it. We might switch to Crime and Punishment.
I got graphic novel Ghost World out form the library--might start that. And I got a book called Student's Go Vegan Cookbook or something along those lines. Erik wants to make the baked seasoned fries.
injury, Shaz, failed library attempt, Goodwill
Then we went out to lunch. We went to this new Indian-Pakistani place that's in a horrible location. Oh, I mentioned it yesterday--it's called Shaz. When we got there, the "closed" sign was on. But a man showed up and motioned to us that it was open. So we parked and went in. We were the only eaters there. It's a huge warehouse-like room. A young woman seated us, and we looked at the menu. I was super disappointed that the menu she handed us didn't match the menu that's online. My planned order was all messed up--the main thing I wanted was baingan bartha. But it wasn't there. We ended up getting veggie samosas, tandoori paneer, aloo ghobi (cauliflower and potatoes), garlic naan, and paratha. The food was all totally yum. But the owner kept talking to us. We're the anonymous diner type. She asked us what we thought of everything. I was too shy to bring up my disappointment about the menu. While we ate, two other couples showed up, so that's good. I think they're going down. But we took a flier about their grand opening. They're having a bounce house and everything. Sadly, I think it will be poorly attended. The location is just bad. But for their grand opening there's a buffet on the cheap side, and we might go.
Then after lunch (Erik had chai, and they brought it to him in a little white teapot), we tried to go to the Carmichael library, but the lot was full. People were illegally parked on the street. We thought about parking illegally for a while but gave up and left.
Then we visited the Goodwill on Arden. This was the first time we'd been there since it reopened. The clothing there is completely disorganized, and there's no way I'm going to go through every women's shirt there searching for something my size. But I found some pink stationary for a dollar. Some of the prices were high (I looked at a lot of dishes), for a thrift store, but the stationary's price seemed fair.
vegan ginger carrot cake, moong dal
This afternoon I made some dal. It's moong dal. I followed the recipe except I doubled it and added tons of garlic and ginger. It's easy and so good. It's much like a soup we used to eat all the time known as sacred soup which is basically the same thing only with red lentils and it's made in two different pots rather than one. This new recipe is easier. Anyway, it's the kind of good that grows. The more you eat, the better it gets. I really recommend this dal to everyone.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
happy Valentine's Day
Anyway, I made some vanilla pudding yesterday. It turned out great. I ate the first serving warm. It reminded me of oatmeal but without the oats, which makes sense because the basic ingredients are the same--soymilk, maple syrup. I liked it cold better. Erik liked it better than the carob versions.
Right now I'm waiting for P to come pick up his manuscript and deliver a new one. This project is almost over. Then I think we'll deposit some checks at the bank and go to farmers' market. Farmer's market? I know there's more than one farmer, but farmers' market looks bad. I finally found peace about how to punctuate women's writers group. I decided it should be punctuated like women's studies.
We thought about going to lunch at a new Indian-Pak place called Shaz and using Valentine's Day as an excuse, but then we remembered I have choir practice at 12:15. Kinda plunk in the middle of the day there. So I think we'll go tomorrow, or Tuesday.
Friday, February 13, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
happy Abe's birthday or something
Yesterday afternoon I spent trying to get my medication. The story is too long, boring, and frustrating to tell. This morning E and I were going to go to the big county pharmacy to see if they would give me my medication, but she's sick, so it's not happening. I don't have transportation there--the truck is riding rough, and I don't trust it. I have never taken the bus here in Sacramento and feel too fragile to try for the first time this morning. I have a therapy appointment at 12:30, so maybe after that I'll feel strong enough to try taking the bus. I'm scared of getting stranded somewhere and having no one to call. Erik is working.
So I feel that things have fallen apart. If only our work was regular and steady and not in intense short periods. I wish we had had the truck fixed by now, for example, which could have happened if we were regular people. Or if Erik had a regular job, maybe he would be able to take tomorrow off to bring me to the county pharmacy and help me fight for my medication (it's come down to that).
Yesterday was really rainy, but today it's gray out but no rain. That's good because I don't have an umbrella--we had one, but it's lost. I need to get a new umbrella. Certain things Need To Be Done, but they're always postponed. When Erik is off work next week, we'll be able to do certain things. We have no work again until February 25th.
Living feels really difficult right now. I don't think it's that I'm depressed, just overwhelmed.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
the big visit day one
Then we went to Vedanta. I showed her around the garden. She took pictures of an egret and of statuary and of me in a bare-branched fig tree. (I didn't climb the fig tree--I was standing within its branches.) She had been there before in the summer years ago. We ran into P, so it was nice that she got to meet E. I showed her inside the temple, and I showed her the harmonium, which was fun--I played her a scale, and she got to play a few notes too.
Then we went to McKinley Park and walked a little bit around the duck pond. We saw pigeons, mallards, wood ducks, a cormorant. Seagulls. She was surprised they were so far inland. We sat on a bench in the sun and talked.
Then E dropped me off at home and went to her hotel room to settle in and rest a while.
Next we went out to dinner at the nearest Indian food place. We spoke of many things. We stopped at the Indian store next door so I could buy some red lentils. Then we came over to my apartment and sat at the table writing a little bit. We made lists of the things we don't know. We brainstormed things she could make a zine about. I got some good ideas too. Maybe I'll make some one-shots.
Now it's morning again, and we have no plans for the day other than to have picnic lunch this time to save money. It doesn't look like rain at all, so we'll have time at the park. Today and every weekday until Monday, Erik is scoring outside the home. Yesterday he spent with his best friend T playing video games.
Monday, February 09, 2009
every letter is a love letter
This quote from the word of the day made me think of one of my favorite other quotes, which is "Every letter is a love letter." I thought I made this one up, but then I googled it and saw that others before me had thought of it too.
Sunday, February 08, 2009
and to all a goodnight
happy cleaning day
Today I need to type the minutes, edit other P's manuscript, and participate in major cleaning day.
Friday, February 06, 2009
mint carob pudding
Meanwhile, Erik is at his best friend's apartment, and they're playing old video games. I guess I'll go to bed because I'm too tired and overloaded to edit P's manuscript. He didn't number the pages this time, which makes things harder. I'll have to berate him about that.
Erik did some really wonderful cleaning today. The kitchen looks way better. Sunday is big cleaning day, though. Then Monday my best friend E is coming to visit Sacramento for three nights.
I've been getting some great mail. Today--a letter from my only friend in Bishop, a letter from my zinester friend in Sacramento, a postcard from a stranger.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Last night I put about 20 CDs on my hard drive, so now I have lots more to listen to.
I haven't even started on the manuscript my friend P dropped off for me three days ago. Oops. Busy reading The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle. Last night there was some war. I don't do war, and I ended up skipping a few pages having to do with torture.
Yesterday I got a great letter from a stranger with a zine trade. He drew a fire extinguisher. I love the zine he sent: Why Is Your Work So Sloppy?
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
vegan carob pudding
Next I want to try making the same carob pudding but putting peanut butter in it.
I used something like this chocolate pudding recipe only I used carob powder instead of cocoa powder and mixed the cornstarch with a little water before adding it to the pan.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Sunday, February 01, 2009
my day in food
And then tonight I did something I had never done before in my entire life: I made potato salad. And it's really good. I microwaved the potatoes instead of boiling them. Then I diced them and mixed them with malt vinegar, lots of salt and pepper, vegan mayo, and green onions. It's everything I like about potato salad without the thing I hate (celery).