dangerous compassions

I call you / from the comet's cradle

Monday, January 22, 2018


Looks like we're buying a 2007 Nissan Quest minivan tonight.

Sunday, January 21, 2018

rainbow and rainbow's shadow

I got really sad but feel better now.

Friday, January 19, 2018


Yesterday Ming rear ended someone on the freeway.  He's fine, but I think the little Echo is totaled.  I was upbeat last night, but I feel down today.

Thursday, January 18, 2018

marigold Ming grew from seed

"What should I blog?" I asked Ming.

"How you had fun at the hot springs?" Ming replied.

"Should I abandon my blog?" I then asked.

"Noooo!" he said.

The marigold Ming grew from seed finally bloomed!

Wednesday, January 17, 2018


Well, yesterday was rough for Ming--four meetings plus community lunch.  I only had one meeting. 

We're leading a worship service at the local UU church on Feb 4th.  So we need to get a sermon going.  It's about NDE and Catholic Worker.  The Sacred Peace Walk.

So one of our meetings was last night at 6:30 with the worship leaders.

And today is Wednesday which I left mostly free, and we're going to the hot springs with A.  Yay!

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

David Bowie is very disappointed in you

Sometimes A stands there with his hands on his hips while doing something such as scolding his dogs.  It reminds me of this meme which I find hilarious.

I showed A the meme last night and he didn't think it was funny.  He just started singing "You Remind Me of the Babe."

I've been up a while and it's still dark.  Almost breakfast time!

Monday, January 15, 2018

Guest Blogger

Today was a celebration. It was the The 36th Annual Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Parade of Las Vegas, Nevada. 

We won last year but our organization's name was listed as "Las Vegas Desert Experience"

We are an organization that promotes non violence and as such we highly celebrate peacemakers such as Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. 

Sunday, January 14, 2018


great title

We got a new small frying pan.  We're calling it Tink because it makes a tinking sound as it heats and cools.

Today we have a 1 pm meeting.  Then at 4:15 Ming's getting picked up to go help with a big donation.

Last night we were at A's house.  He fed us blood orange, cupcakes baked the night before, tea with lots of ginger.  He read to me.  I told him stories, like the stories of picking mandarins and planting an orange tree.

Yesterday I wrote a poem that's in six parts.  I guess I had a lot to say.  It's called "Chelsea, Marcus, and the Immortal Potatoes."

Saturday, January 13, 2018

Guest Blogger

It is the season for events for Nevada Desert Experience. On Monday January 15th is the Las Vegas Dr. Martin Luther King Jr Day Parade where we will be on a float, number 50 to be exact.

Downwinder Day is also approaching on January 27th. We will hold a vigil at the NNSS that day.

Friday, January 12, 2018

new banner

Thursday, January 11, 2018

when it rains it snows

Yesterday I failed to blog, a party foul.  Sorry about that.

In the morning we had a flat tire.  Ming got that all fixed.  Thanks, Ming!

Then we went to A's place to pick him up.  He was asleep.  So it took us more than an hour waiting for him.  We bought donuts and were patient.

Then we went to Ash Meadows.  There were dirt roads.  We visited a visitor's center.

Then we walked on this wooden boardwalk to Crystal Spring.  It was beautiful.  That's an understatement.  I didn't even try to take a picture of it.  We looked at playful pupfish.  We ate cheese sandwiches.

Then we wanted to visit other places but the road was too muddy.  We didn't want to get stuck in our little low clearance Echo.

So then we went to the Goddess Temple when the sun had just gone down.  I sang in the temple as it started to get dark.  Wind was blowing and it got very cold.  I sang my two favorite songs.  Then we just enjoyed the afterglow, clouds pink.

Then we went to A's place and he read to me half a chapter.  We talked to one of his roommates.  He's grown his hair long and it looks pretty.

Something funny happened.  My mom cleaned out her stationery collection and gave me all kinds of cards and paper.  Then my friend J did the same.  Yesterday I got a package in the mail: my friend HW set me a bunch of stationery too.  Holy crap.  When it rains it snows.

Tuesday, January 09, 2018

vibration offering

My two favorite songs.

Monday, January 08, 2018

on the moon

Last night we were at A's place again till almost midnight.  He read to me.  We are getting through The Others, which I love, though there's some difficult violence.  But it's kind of cartoony.  Still.

The SpaceX ships were named Just Read the Instructions and Of Course I Still Love You.  I find the second super evocative.  I could name my next book Of Course I Still Love You after the ship named after the book ship.

But you know me.  I have a hard time justifying space travel when people on Earth are starving.  But maybe I'm backward.

Sunday, January 07, 2018

hat genius 16

Things are super messy at our house.  But I have faith some cleanup will happen soon. 

We were at A's house till midnight last night then went to Roberto's for burritos.  So we weren't asleep till 2 and I was awake at 5:30.  Hmm, that's not ideal.

I have a goddess temple board meeting at noon.  Oh, I think I already told you.

Saturday, January 06, 2018


This morning I served the hungry: bread.  Then we had a meeting.  During check ins I said I had been down for a few days. 

After the meeting J gave me some extra attention.  Tomorrow I'm helping her take down the Christmas tree.  I had this weird idea we could play Christmas carols backwards.  Weird idea, Laura-Marie.

Friday, January 05, 2018


I keep getting more stuff and it keeps piling up on my desk.  People give me notecards, journals, printouts of internet articles, letters, toys, books...

Ming went to a search & rescue thing last night.  It was like a job interview.  But he'd be volunteering.

Why does he want to take on one more big thing?  I think it's because the Street Medics is floundering.

I'm sad.  Life feels pointless.  That's a sign I need to kick up my self-care.  I'm going to write in my journal and try to make a plan.

Thursday, January 04, 2018


Laying out two new zines--I still need covers, but I'm moving forward.

Tonight's a prayer thing.  Last month we brought A with us, and our friends welcomed the stranger.  "You're only a stranger once!" A said.

Mom made me rainbow hats.

Wednesday, January 03, 2018


It's the middle of the night / early in the morning.  I should go back to bed but wanted to say hello to you first.  Hello to you, Unknown. 

I'm listening to Mazzy Star and feeling both the sweetness of life and the weight of the world.  Strange how they can go together so easily!

Well, gnight.

Tuesday, January 02, 2018


A funny moment yesterday was when I googled something on my phone and A saw the autofill of my previous searches.  He remarked on one.

"Don't look at my google searches!" I snapped.  "I looked it up because you mentioned it!"

"I google everything you tell me about too!" he said. 

Then I felt stupid for snapping at him and being embarrassed about my search history.


Ran out of propane--took the rice and lentils to Freedom House to cook.  Forgot to put the peas in the rice.  It's okay. 

Hopefully Ming will be back from the doctor soon to switch out the propane tanks.  He txts me they're doing a drug screen on him.  Sadface.

blue moment

It's a blue moment, outside.  The sun is coming--it's getting light.

I got up to do some writing.  And I think I'll go back to bed now.

Today I'm cooking lentil soup and rice for lunch.  Then there are greens for salad.  Nothing else on the agenda, thank gosh.

Monday, January 01, 2018


We stayed up all night last night having a fire in the firepit at the goddess temple and drinking tea and reading to each other.

Then the sun came up, and I was happy.

It's going to take some getting used to, the new year.